Tuesday, February 10, 2015
One Gay Man's Story: Still Trying to do "What's Right."
So at this point, I was working 55+ hours a week that required about an hour of driving to get there...! Ok! That's what I had to do ...
One Gay Man's Story: Trying to be straight! Oops! No diaphragm!
One Gay Man's Story: I was so Inept from the Honeymoon Onward
It wasn't her fault! I felt more guilty than ever! I had no urge for it all! I was trying to become straight, but it wasn't happening! I had no answer but "I've got to endure this thing." She was worthy of love and being loved by a man who wanted a wife. I did not have the courage to admit that I was not fit for it. I did not have the moral fortitude to admit that I was deceiving myself. My ineptness ended up impacting more than four lives!
One Gay Man's Story: Get Married to Become Straight
I did not "come out" as Gay until after my divorce. Before the marriage, explicitly I explained my "problem." I remained faithful to that marriage. Two children later, she heard me talking in my sleep ... about situations that never happened in reality. I can't prove or disprove anything that she said that I said. All I know is that she filed for a divorce, and, according to her, her lawyer could "run you (me) up the creek." A few years later, her lawyer tried to argue a "homosexuality case" before the Clayton County Superior Court judge Stephen Boswell. I was there, and I heard the judge say, "Without evidence, we're not going to talk about this!" That happened in the middle of my studies at the University of Georgia, and it cost me $500 in court fees, plus some lawyer fees.
Getting married was solely my means to try to become straight. Honestly, I still wanted to meet, fall in love with, enjoy courtship, and marry a man. My dreams of doing all that were more vivid than ever.
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